Guess what?! No tears today but I did have to work very late (again) and got the call to be expected to put in hours this weekend too. So, what am I doing? Soaking, drinking, reflecting.
But let’s start with this morning. I was blaring Sheryl Crow’s “Greatest Mistake” and holy shit I think that song is about me and the dude. I almost starting laughing when I reached my coffee shop because I was shooketh. Actually speechless.
“Did you know when you go it’s the perfect ending,
To the bad day I was just beginning.
When you go, all I know is you’re my favorite mistake.”
I’m sorry, WHAT?!
Well maybe nothing lasts forever,
Even when you stay together.
I don’t need forever after, but it’s your laughter won’t let me go
So I’m holding on this way.
😭😭😭
Tonight’s walk home took me to Duane Reade since CVS failed me twice, and thank that sweet baby jesus because I got two bottles of bubble bath. I also got some Nerds chewy candy. Bath essentials for tonight.
I left Duane Reade feeling confident about the evening and as I was passing my block’s street vendor I felt my legs stop moving, my body shift, and my mouth say “pack of cigarettes, please.” Yeah, that happened.
I immediately opened the pack and lit up. Since I was so close to my building I was very soon that girl that smokes in the outside corner. You know what, it was damn necessary.
Will I smoke more? Am I going to turn into Carrie Bradshaw in AJLT and smoke in kitchen gloves, a robe, and a hair covering? Cause I did come in stinking, and I did start running the bath before my front door was even locked.
But here we are. Taking another self-care bath and I’m going to enjoy every damn second of it. Stay tuned to see if I have any more revelations today.
Tub Tracker Stats:
- 45 minutes and counting
- One very big glass of wine deep
- Eating Nerds!!! A first time for food
- Bubbles AND epson salt; both lavender
- Checking my email constantly for those work edits
- Sweating. I made it too hot.
the bad hag 