Month: January 2023

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Finally Blitzed

First self-care bath of 2023!!

Got the apartment. Still haven’t gotten the job.

Drank two glasses of wine while starting to clean out my skinny clothes from the closet. One massive bag for goodwill and one with items to attempt to sell.

Figured that was enough work for the night so I got perfectly blitzed and now in the tub with the remaining bottle of wine.

Cheerio ✌️

45 min update: I dropped my wine glass in the bubbles, so now I’m drinking straight from the bottle. (And yes it’s a plastic cup! From the theatre! 😂)

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3 / 3

Third bath of the year. Clarification: Third depression bath of the year.

It’s been a rough start, but according to TikTok all the planets that went retrograde are coming out tomorrow??? So fingers crossed? They said I’ll be lucky in work and home …

Let me catch you up. Yesterday was the one year anniversary of my dad’s death. I spent it hungover because I simply can’t control my drinking on my meds. Told me therapist about it and we’re working on it, ok!!!

Applied to get a new apartment and they are looking like they will reject me. Which really sucks. Fingers crossed she has a good heart and will encourage the building to accept me. I’ll find out tonight or tomorrow.

I’ll also find out tomorrow about that other job I’ve spent forever talking to. Pretty sure they extended an offer to someone else last week and tomorrow’s “catch up” will be to tell me that. Ugh. Fingers crossed again??

I also found out that the job I quit … the one that had me doing three full-time jobs and told me that was normal and would never change … is hiring for ONE of those roles. And the pay scale is what I BEGGED them for. BEGGED. Then got scolded and punished for doing so. It’s also the role that I told them a junior person should be doing. So yeah, paying a junior person my salary to do one of my three jobs. Fuck. Off.

Just going through it. So here I am. In the bath. Sober. Quiet. Avoiding life for the moment.

Also, fuck the tub stats tonight. ✌️

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Gloom and Doom

Ugh. Second depression bath of 2023 underway. Things are all gloom around here so I’m trying to forget about it all for a moment.

Job search is blah. Apartment hunting is blah. And small fall bald dude from that holiday party messaged me Friday. Did I meet up with him? Yes. Should I have? Probably not. Was it worth the 8:30 am walk of shame in a faux-fur cropped leopard jacket? Most definitely not.

So here we are. Reflecting. Silence. Ready for therapy.

No tub stats tonight. Not feeling it. ✌️

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First Bath of 2023

And it’s a depression bath!! Wooooo!

As soon as my flight landed back in NYC, I received a rejection text message from one of those jobs. Then, while walking to the taxi, my backpack strap popped off. And to top it off, I was sweating and overheating thanks to global warming. Yay!

So I’m now in the bath, very hot, and hoping it pushes this cold I feel starting out.

Brought in a cookie. Maybe year for food?

FRESH Tub Stats:

  • First bath of the year
  • 20 mins and countint
  • Don’t feel like swiping
  • Don’t feel like TikTok dooms scrolling
  • Going to READ! New year, new me?